I had the 2nd lesson on Mindfulness on 15 April 2020 – actually last year at this time, I would have fallen down the mood curve – i am still doing ok – but I know i could not rest well – i wake up at about 3.30am for the past 3 days, and tried to go back to sleep with no success. Tried meditation, but the mind seemed to run wild and cannot focus. Something is not right, I suspect.
I do not expect miracles to happen on the 2nd session; I was rather tired due to lack of sleep. As I am writing this now, I can feel the pressure on my head, the hard pressing to my craniam. The lack of sleep is a catalyst to depression for Bipolar Disorder (BD) patient; it raises the alarm in me.
I think I really need to take a day away from work. I have been on the computer for too long hours – writing, delving into too many irrelevant stuff, mind distracted, and being annoyed at a recent online meeting (I did not show it though, but behind the veneer of Zoom, I was cursing and swearing. I lost the cool; it is a good example of the lack of self control needed in mindfulness.
At the 2nd session, I can see lesser participation from the online group. Prior to the start, I heard 2 mothers complained about HBL, the extra burden of having the young children at home that distupted their routines. I am feeling the heat too – I started to shout at my boy, and even hit his hands yesterday as I was juggling between work and coaching him in his HBL, while my wife had her online meetings with her bosses.
HBL is really bitting on many peoples’ nerves.scn
The Habits of the mind – what resonates in me is the Ruminating – that incessant play and rewind and play over the mind of something – like my unhappiness with SCN. In fact, at last night’s SCN meeting, I was questioned why I had not linked my Smart Cities Education initiatives to SCN? Can I tell them the truth? I doubt they can handle the truth (and so as I thought).
- Ruminating – thinking over and over
P.I.E. – Why Jay Run?
I guess when the mind is not functioning properly, we tend to drop back into the auto-pilot mode – when the situation comes, you will react, and the mind goes wild, and not able to STOP. I cannot let it go. S-Stop for a moment; T-Take a deep breath; O-Observe your experience; and P: Proceed. I guess my brakes malfunctioned.
The Mindful Eating exercise is refreshing and intriguing. I guess I have never done that in my entire life to give time to the food I eat; I just gobble them down. This exercise needs me to look at the grape, smell it, touch it on my lips, roll in my mouth, take a first bite slowly, feel the juice of the grape before chewing it up slowly and then stomach it.
As Master Wu Gui (Oogway) said to Panda (Poo) in the Kungfu Panda movie:
Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery. But today is a gift, that’s why it is called the Present
If you are always in a rehearsing mode (always thinking of what might come in the future and worry about it), you are facing anxiety; if you are in the rehashing mode (always blame oneself for past actions or inactions), you are in depression.
In a study by KillingsWorth and Gilbert (2010) on 2250 participants, 49.6% of the people will have their mind wandering that led them to unhappiness (less happy). Why is this so? – Jolie asked. I shared that in High-Performance Habits by Branson Burchard, the focus is the key; and when the mind wanders, it equates to distraction, just like mobile phones and emails (they are what others want us to do, not what we want to do). When you are not able to accomplish your tasks due to mind wandering, it will likely make you less happy.
The Emperor’s 3 quetions: Thought the following video is a little different, it tells a story:
- Who is the most important person? The one that you are with;
- What is the most important time? Now; and
- What is the most important thing to do? To care.
The week’s exercises are:
- Do a 10-min awareness & body scan practice daily;
- Eat one mouthful or one meal “mindfully” each day; and
- Choose a routine and be mindful of the experience.